Night filled with dreams errr.. Possibly premonitions... I had a rough night. Did somethings I wish I didn't and I probably shouldn't have, but oh well. I think its for the best. I haven't been feeling well lately, not emotionally, physically. I told someone about these problems last night and I figured whatever. I think I need to go to the doctor soon cause after last nights dreams I feel its imperitive I go. If I seem distant to anyone, Im sorry, I have a lot on my mind and no one to talk to.. Well I do have people to talk to, but I feel its just none of anyone's business..(no offense) This is shit I have to work out in my own head.
No one understands me anyway, thats what I've been hearing for years now. Only my dear old friends do, and they are no where to be found. I hate lookin for things that aren't really there... ya know? The fucked up thing is when Im feeling really down, something happens to redeem my trust and love of this fucked up world. I think I need to retreat from the world for awhile and get back into my religion, get healthy again. Take care of myself for a change, instead of relying on other people. I just wish I didn't open up again.. When I relate my past, it seems people run and hide.. what the fuck??! And don't ask me what the fuck Im talking about, cause I don't want to talk about it in detail. And If you think you know what Im talking about you probably don't.. It has nothing to do with any of you.. :) If it did you know I would come out and say it.. So until next time kiddies.. Have A Hell of A Fucking Day!!!!
I'd like to close my eyes and go numb
but there's a cold wind coming from
the top of the highest high-rise today.
It's not a breeze cause' it blows hard.
Yes and it wants me to discard the humanity I know,
watch the warmth blow away.
So don't let the world bring you down.
Not everyone here is that fucked up and cold.
Remember why you came and while you're alive
experience the warmth before you grow old.
So do you think I should adhere to that pressing new frontier?
And leave in my wake a trail of fear
Or should I hold my head up high
and throw a wrench in spokes by
leaving the air behind me clear
So don't let the world bring you down.
Not everyone here is that fucked up and cold.
Remember why you came and while you're alive
experience the warmth before you grow.
So don't let the world bring you down.
Not everyone here is that fucked up and cold.
Remember why you came and while you're alive
experience the warmth before you grow old.
Before you grow old.
Where did it go? (x4)