Well this morning at around 7 am, my neighbors across the street had landscapers cutting down a tree with a dull chainsaw. My mother went outside and was bitchin at em'. My mom is such a bad ass. I was so pissed, but to sleepy to lift a finger. Shut Up, I don't let my mom fight my battles. Well Im sitting here now listening to some buddhist mediation music, and writing poetry now. Its amazing how such a crazy morning turned out to be so beautiful. I wish I could play this song for you all. Its by Orbital the track name is Halcyon & on & on. Its a trance song, actually a really old trance song from the early nineties. I normally use it to meditate, because its so peaceful.

Damn its quiet in here, almost too quiet. Im kinda lonely now that lil Dennis has a job. No one to talk to and mess with. I've noticed that this time of year everyone gets depressed. Why is that? Even today for some reason I just feel down, and I don't know why. Nothing tramatic or depressing has happened, but yet I feel sad. Very strange, maybe Im just bored and letting things get to me. I think i've been thinking on times when I could go out with my girlfriend, and share things, ya know? Yes friends are good too, but theres something about a girl thats different. Im tired of being single and just messing around with girls, I think I wanna try something a lil more serious. Ever since High school I've been chasing girls around, Im tired of that. I feel its time to settle down a little bit , Ive been using this immaturity front for so long, it time to grow up a little bit....

Hey Boys and Girls! Yesterday was full of excitment! First went to subway with Big J-ON. To visit my lil brotha Dennis or D-nyce as he likes to be called. (I Think of NYCE banking when I hear that!) So as we waited on line to order this "Contractor" was ordering a 3 for 11.99 special. Off the bat this dude had an attitude problem with Dennis. Little did he know that I was standing behind him, and Jon right next to him. Dennis apologized for being slow and told him he was still new. The Guy was like "Well they should Train You!". For a while I sat there with my mouth shut, I felt it was none of my buisness! SO when he started flipping out about mayonase and telling dennis "NOW You put the bacon in the micrcowave!" That was it, I was fiending a lil bit for a smoke and then this Asshole starts with Lil Man! I was set off! I simply said in a deep angered voice while pacing back and forth "Cut the Guy A Fucking Break Dude", dennis in turn called him an asshole! The guy took a few seconds and than asked "Are You Talking to me?" Quickly I responded, "Yeah Who the fuck you think im fuckin talkin to dude?!" As I said this I looked into his eyes with my fists clenched! He immedately look down at the floor and for the duration of his order would not look at me. Every so often he would look at Jon for some moral support but Jon would just give him dirty looks. SO after the dick left I had to blow off some steam and said, "I was this close (hand expression) to smacking that guy in is fuckin face!" The rest of the customers though probably a little scared of me at the moment, knew I was right! This guy in a grey shirt came up to me and smiled and even told dennis not to worry about that "Asshole"

After this Jon and I walked home and played some XBOX amped to be exact! Actually I believe we played every game in my possesion. HAHa Jen called and we chatted for a while. Later on Jon,Steph,Mike,Our Jen,Manfre,Rich,Jen2, me and some other people met at the Bowling alley. I will not post my scores because well they sucked.. But all and all I had an awesome time! Jen calling me a loser all NIGHT.. HAHA YAY THATS GREEEAT! lol Many insane pictures were taken last night, haha especially the one when both Rich and Jen had the same Idea and attacked me as the picture was taken.. lol Can't wait to see the pictures :) Im not used to smiling in pictures because of my reenacting. Civil War soldiers never smiled in pics, for one they had nothing to be happy about and 2 it took 20 mins to a 1/2 hr to take the pic, i doubt you want to hold a smile aswell as your position to take a pic.. HAHA but i digress.. The night was fun... But when I got home and fell asleep the strangest thing happened.... [FADE TO BLACK]

Sorry its a line from the song im listening to right now. Its by the epoxies. But anyway.. Im bored waiting for jon.. We are gonna go food shopping for the sunday shindig. I think I need to get fucked up! Drunk off my ass.. Every since I quit smoking buddha, and smoking cigarettes I have stayed clear of alcohol. But this weekend I am so gonna get all sorts of toe up from the flo up! Ive been getting a lot of shit lately from my crew. The BPC "Blue Point Crew" 'cause I don't chill no more.. Actually that whole crew has kind of broken up.. So this up coming week we're all gonna chill its gonna be awesome! I've been missing my boy francis lately. Some shit apparently went down while he was in jail.. His ex girlfriend, (my old friend) has been spreading shit that i wanted to fight him. Thats ridiculous, Francis is one of my heads! Shit we went through some shit together and always had a blast!

Hey Girls and Boys , Its almost 10 o'clock, Im getting ready to call up jen and wake her up so she can come and help me cook. Hey I said 9 but i figured I would be nice after the message she left me last night. Im gonna go out and clean up my yards a little bit. At least the house is clean so just in case it rains we can all bug out in the crib! Yesterday was awesome! Jen and I walked half way to the liquor store and then had Rich and Jon come and scoup us up. We then got a bottle of tequilla (thanks jen) Jon and I got toe up! I was a lot more F*CKED Up because I drank a lot more! But the party sure did take off from there!

Chicken FIghts , Wrestling, Nintendo, Guitar Jams and Of Course the family Guy. Somewhere throughout the night I got a knife and Justin and I took vietnam pics.. HAHA If You look at Jen's Collection of pictures you notice that towards the end Jon and I started taking the pictures!! Justin's Party Pics Like My Still Life of the trey! LOL Well I have stuff todo.. I have cooking to do and cleaning as well !!! See ya all at my party! This is Selden Vice Detective Ruiz Signing Off (Div 6)

Hey Guys,

First let me say Thank You for attending my party on sunday and to Jon for making it all possible. And another thanks to Rich and Justin for allowing me to come to theirs! :) Well I would give you highlights from each party but I can't seem to remember them that well.. I mean I look at the pictures, but I draw a blank lol . So I guess I can give ya what I got. Well first My neck and head hurt, thats attributed to getting my "Ass" kicked by my father who when I wouldn't stopped "Accidently" slammed my head into the ground. Needless to say I gave up shortly after that. The day went on, when I spit beer everywhere and got Jen.. BIG MISTAKE, never saw her so mad before.. lol The night continues , I remember being on my knees after a flag incident, and my mom came up and pushed me down extending my right knee where it should have not gone?! I took a shower under orders of Jen and someothers, I was laid out, until of course in typical 'Drunk-en' Frank and Dennis fashion we got into a fight! Everyone tried stopping it which I appreciate, cause I shouldn't have been on my knee at that point but you know when your that drunk you don't feel anything at all. Out of the darkness and drunken daze Jen came up to me and made me stop and sit. Jon stayed with me and carried me away from the fight. Dennis and I made up of course. I kinda remember something about walking through fire, jumping over fire etc. ::Went to Bed::

Hey , I guess its the rain and probably my head trauma but Im mad meloncoly today. So I wanted to share this video. I'll only have it up here for a day so check it out! Its my friend's band in florida they are awesome and this song kinda makes me feel better :)

Click on more to see the video.. I decided to keep it up to help out my boys, but it was getting on my nerves cause it kept slowing my compy down at home.. Yes I know all I have is Dial Up.. Not For Long Nukkahs!!!

THE PARTY TO END ALL PARTIES (well almost end all parties)If ya haven't guessed yet, its my party hahaha

The Party that was so Thick n Rich <-------had an awesome at his party too!!!
Justin's Party
Even though I got got really really hurt this weekend I had such a great fuckin time with everyone.. I really needed it!!! I felt young again

Hey Guys,

My boy Jesse sent me some pics from the RNC, Check these out its sad to see our police system resorting to 1939 Nazi SS Techniques. My friend Jesse is in the 7th picture taking care of the middle age woman who got her ass beat down by the facist cops.. It was senseless

The Cop Assaulting Pics..

YAY I leave for canada tomorrow night!! Hey and are we going bowling tonight? and Oh Yeah Jen that pyramid is mine.. :)

Sept. 09, 1941
U.S. Army Headquarters
Selden NY

Spec. Frank R.

You are hearby reactivated by the United States Army On this date September 9 1941 and assigned to the First Special Service Force. You are to hook up with your section in Long Beach NY. From there you are to move out to Oddessa to rendevous with the Canadian Section. You will be going in behind enemy Lines on this one Frank. Your objective is to go deep into Nazi Germany and gather intel for the OSS, so we back home can assess our options on taking out Adolph Hitler. Thats All the Information we can give you at this time your commanding office will brief you when you arrive with the rest of the section. God Speed Old Friend.

LOL that sounds awesome doesn't it?! Well Im leaving for Long Beach Tonight. (Thanks For The Ride Jennie) Then Jesse, Andy, willie and I will hook up with steve and bruce. I think we're all gonna convo up to "New York / Canada " Its gonna be awesome! But for some reason Im gonna miss you guys back here in the states.. LOL go figure. Im gonna try to pick one of those cheap disposable cameras on the way up there so I can take some photos.. Hopefully someone will have a scanner for me when I return.. If I return?!?! DUN DUN DUUUUUUN! lol Nah Im just playin.... Oh I almost forgot about last night

Well Im eating Lunch, I just had a poor attempt at a "Harry The Hat". It was good don't get me wrong. But Totally wasn't skibbo's heros quality! I'm full as all hell, lol Im waiting for Big J-On to give the word so we can go to selden to discard old compys and keep the good ones.. And Then I GET PAID TODAY!! to bad Its all going to my soon to be car!! and the rest for my Ammo and Registration fees! Well back to work.. I was Five and She was six, we rode on horses made of sticks bang bang.. hehe

later.. im bored.. hahaha... Im actually playing with an old printer which i think may be able to work again... But thats a hope... hehe Old Ass Hp Deskjet 697c.. grr piece of crap..

Well I have returned.. Yes as some of you have noticed I didn't lose my life this weekend hehe. Well the weekend was awesome! Tons of armor, planes and troops! Spending time in foxholes and "Trooping" it across wide open fields. I'm thinner and hungrier than ever ha. Through out the weekend all I ate was A can of Dinty Moore which I shared with my andy, and a can of Chef Bouardee' 'COLD'!! YEAH I love CB cold I just hate it when its warm I think its nasty hot. I fired an amazing amount of rounds, this weekend too. Jesse , Andy and I were all over the field with the force attacking machine gun positions , armor collumns and just full blown running over open fields while under fire from Half Tracks, Planes etc. And Boy Was it F*ckin' Cold at Night man. Thank god for my heavy wool blanket! This weekend was much needed, I haven't been able to go out and play like this in a long time! But it made me realize how much gear I need.. I can't use any of my modern equip. I think Im gonna start a collection.. HAHAH I need $900. for my own tommy :( $240.00 for period Jump Boots and Mountain trousers. Then I need Web gear suspenders and a mussette bag. The rest I can borrow from people, so I need to start saving up my pennies cause the next one is in January!! The battle of the bulge. Its gonna be cold and snowing at this one!

Don't date because you are desperate.
Don't marry because you are miserable.
Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior.
Don't separate because you think it's fashionable.
Don't drink because you have troubles.
Don't gamble because you think winning is inevitable.
Don't philander because you think you are irresistible.
Don't associate with people you can't trust.
Don't cheat. Don't lie. Don't pretend.
Don't dictate because you are smarter.
Don't demand because you are stronger.
Don't sleep around because you think you are old enough and know better.
Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder.
Don't sell yourself, your family, or your ideals.
Don't stagnate.
Don't regress.
Don't live in the past. Time can't bring anything or anyone back.
Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr/Mrs Right.
Don't throw your life away on absolutely Mr Wrong because your biological clock is ticking.

Learn a new skill.
Find a new friend.
Start a new career.
Sometimes, there is no race to be won,
Only a price to be paid for some of life's hastier decisions.
To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless.
To feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy.
To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.
Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons.

To make yourself happy, pursue your passions and be the best of what you can be.
Simplify your life. Take away the clutter.
Get rid of destructive elements:
abusive/ backstabbing "friends", nasty habits, and dangerous liaisons.
Don't abandon your responsibilities but don't overdose on duty.
Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for your family.

Hey Wuzzz Up...

I just woke up in a weird mood, maybe its because of the book I was reading before I went to bed. I had really really really bad dreams last night. I mean It didn't interupt my sleep at all, but It kinda fucked my head up a little bit. Weird shit, Ahh What ever. So I have a lot to do today, Mainly Laundry! YAY!! hahah Im currently Listening to Tai Mai Shu , this guy is funny!! Im kinda procrastinating. I hope Jet Blue calls me soon, Im not sure how much longer I can survive like this.. My bills are starting to over take me.. I almost feel like I can't breathe. Maybe Im too materialistic at times, But I want to get finacialy straight before I start going to school again. I don't wanna have bills and such, cause I know school is just gonna give me more :) But ahh its for a good cause!

TURNCOAT! KILLER! LIAR! THEIF!
Criminal with protection of the law!

Go!

States lies dressed up as evening news
We're tired of lies we want the truth
Brodcast by corpses courting you
We're tired of lies we want the truth
Most people they will never know
We're tired of lies we want the truth
With your or against you?
Then I am against you because you're a...

TURNCOAT! KILLER! LIAR! THEIF!
Criminal with protection of the law

TURNCOAT! KILLER! LIAR! THEIF!
Criminal with protection of the law

In your corner
Makes me wanna
Douse myself in gasoline!
Civil servants fall in line for you
Too brainwashed to see the truth
You use anyone you can!

TURNCOAT! KILLER! LIAR! THEIF!
Criminal with protection of the law

TURNCOAT! KILLER! LIAR! THEIF!
Criminal with protection of the

KILLER!

LIAR!

A TURNCOAT! and a THEIF!

Criminal with protection of the law!

I've been home doing nothing as usual... but Im tired of complaining. I think its fuckin stupid to complain about a situation and inturn not do anything to fix it. So from here on out Im not gonna complain and bitch. Im gonna make my situation better, I mean 'come on'.

"I don't bother to ask why, when you sit at home and cry. I don't care why, I need more time" I love that line, its from a song by the epoxies. I dunno why I like it so much it just kinda gets in my head and stays! So I needed to write it down here for everyone to see! I
ve decided to place two songs in here today! well actually three all together if you count the anti flag song.. The two songs are Drive (Acoustic) and Miss You (acoustic) They mean a lot to me, because they help me get through shit and since my life is taking off once again They mean even more to me! so here goes.....

Check it Out Im Famous.. HAHAHAH

350th Aniversary!

I know I know, Im putting a hell of a lot of lyrics up here today, but I wanted to because Im listening to crazy amounts of old songs that I forgot I loved so much so I wanted to share them with you.. If you notice Jon hooked me up with the categories code... The First Song is Aqualung and the Second is locomotive breath both by Jethro Tull. I suggest you pick up "Jethro Tull : The Very Best" and "Songs from the wood" Awesome Albums!!

"AquaLung"

Sitting on a park bench
eyeing little girls with bad intent.
Snot running down his nose
greasy fingers smearing shabby clothes.
Drying in the cold sun
Watching as the frilly panties run.
Feeling like a dead duck
spitting out pieces of his broken luck.
Sun streaking cold
an old man wandering lonely.
Taking time
the only way he knows.
Leg hurting bad,
as he bends to pick a dog-end
he goes down to the bog
and warms his feet.

Feeling alone
the army's up the rode
salvation à la mode and
a cup of tea.
Aqualung my friend
don't start away uneasy
you poor old sod, you see, it's only me.
Do you still remember
December's foggy freeze
when the ice that
clings on to your beard is
screaming agony.
And you snatch your rattling last breaths
with deep-sea-diver sounds,
and the flowers bloom like
madness in the spring.

OMG I dunno why but maybe its because I stole that phat Ice cream spoon, but I got so sick last night from the Uno's Jon , Chico and I ate. I know its the UNO's because Chico also didn't feel quite right. Im so tired, I was up all night. And even when I did start feeling better I would have wicked nightmares...Grr I mean I do feel better now.. Just tired and hungry (can ya believe that?) So to anyone who was awaiting me, I am sorry I was just not able to talk last night :( or even do anything at that... Talk to ya'll later :)

"Let me bring you songs from the wood!"

You're Most Like The Season Winter ...

You're often depicted as the cold, distant season.
But you're incredibly intelligent, mature and
Independant. You have an air of power around
you - and that can sometimes scare people off.
You're complex, and get hurt easily - so you
rarely let people in if you can help it. You
can be somewhat of a loner, but just as easily
you could be the leader of many. You Tend to be
negative, and hard to relate to, but you give
off a relaxed image despite being insecure -
and secretly many people long to be like you,
not knowing how deep the Winter season really
is.

Well done... You're the most inspirational of
seasons :)


?? Which Season Are You ??
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Oh And Check this OUt... The Grover Story

Many Of You may know of my theory about the Muppets being Evil. And a few years ago My suspicions grew even more because of a site I had found. It was call Bert Is Evil I had lost track of this page, and recently found the Grover Story page. I was looking at the links and realized that The Bert is Evil page is still around!! And Hes done a lot more terrible atrosities since I left off. For years I followed and investigated Bert and his gang of miscreants and thugs!! Including Fozzie: The Bear Behind The Bottle It makes me sad that our childhood heros have become so twisted and bitter and in Bert's case Evil.. I will be posting all of the links on my page... look at some of this pic before you go........

Hmmm, Im so confused right now. What do I do? I think its time I go on a soul searchin trip. Get back into my spiritual side once more. I feel my karma is all messed up. I need a little cleansing. Plus I have a lot of decisions to make about my future. I've been given many intising deals the past few days. But it means going into the service and possibly going to war. I dunno what to do anymore yo... Im losing myself in an abyss of indecision and dispair. I need More Time...

"Im not aware of too many things, I know what I know if you know what I mean. Shove Me In The Shallow Water Before I get to deep.. What I am is What I am, you are what you are!"

I love this song , for those who don't know it or haven't caught on its "Shallow Water" - by Edie Brickell and the New Bohemians. Im such a hippy. I've been told Im different, because Im not into materialistic things. I mean it would be cool to have money, big house, white picket fence, but Its not gonna make me lose sleep at night if I don't have it. Hmm What to do , What to do.. I feel like I bring drama with me where ever I go. It kinda sucks, having a black cloud over ones head that only effects the beings around you. Or maybe it effects me aswell Im just used to it.... Fuck that What Am I saying, I sound like a whinny bitch. I mean its good to be in touch with your emmotional side, but now I sound like im just feeling bad for myself.. Okay the way I look at my life...

Pros-

I'm alive and breathing
I quit a lot of my bad vices a few years ago
I quit smoking cigarettes for almost a month now
I don't drink heavily
I have awesome friends
I can go on forever...

Cons-
I don't have a well paying job (So fuckin What its temp)

So Im think Im gonna stop bitchin......

FUCK THE WORLD!!

HAHAHAHA

Aight Yo, I've Had enough fucking bullshit for one day! Enough Drama and Childish Shit.. Im closing my office doors for the night. Im gonna be drinking my bottle of Jack Daniels, and maybe some tequilla! Ya know where I am if ya wanna talk or something... Well not to much cause I have work at 9 tomorrow... so I'll just get a little drunk.. :) I wish I had some coke.. but fuck it I'll drink it straight up.. hahaha! If anyone wants to join me, Call me up and come get drunk with me... I'm always down for chillen... Some of my friends are supposed to chill with me tonight but I dunno whats up with that.. call...

Hey Guys.. Just wanted to share this awesome site with you!!!

http://www.benfrank.net/nuke/Free_Peace_mp3s.html

All free political music by the bands we know and love.. I recomend them... If you care check em out.. they are legal and free...

Which 1990's Subculture Do You Belong To?

[Another Quiz by Kris
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So Last night, Brian , Manfre , Jon , Thick n' Rich, The Bear and I went to houllis for supper! I was challenged to eat the BLT! So The bear inturn decided to have a go at it! Dude this was the Biggest BLT I have ever eaten..I had a hardtime finishing it, so I can only imagine what Brian went through to eat it! But I finished my fries and than had Cheesecake afterwards (BAD IDEA!) Bear made short work of the sandwich and his Desert, I can not compete against such eating forces as Bear and Thick! I am a middle weight apparently! So we got to sit in the V.I.P. room aka Table 30. The waiter told us that if we ever want to sit in that room we have to call ahead 15 mins before and reserve it! So thats a must from now on.

After our eating adventure, Jon , Rich , Mike and I went shopping. Jon bought Fable and Rich bought NFL 2k3 ( Which I messed with him about) NFL 2k5 is only 20.00... lol.. After that we were gonna go to the Ghetto Dock , but the rubber guns were there (Public Safety) so we left. I hate those guys. So we went back to rich's pad and watched "Death to Smoochy" I love that movie.. it gets funnier everytime I see it! Well thats pretty much it.. Oh We must have looked like such a motely crue yesterday.. Me decked out in full military combat gear B.D.U (Battle Dress Uniform) , Rich all dressed up like a french hooker, Jon lookin like he just came from some Fancy Rich man's club.. Then you have the Bear.. I mean Come On! lol Im at work on a saturday.. IM BORED OUT OF MY MIND!! The Lan Party is today.. I've never been to one... I hope there is a computer left when I arrive.. Check out this TECH SUPPORT THING.... I know Ya'll feel me!

Hey Guys, Since the Realese of The Original 3 Star Wars Movies on DVD are this this week, I thought you'd all dig watching this awesome Mockumentry! Its basically Cops, Just Called troops and they follow around stormtroopers.. Click read more to check it out!

First off Let Me Say Once again Happy Birthday Brian! So its Monday, and Im tired as hell! Saturday was filled with work and then My first ever LAN party! I had a good time, playing Call Of Duty:United Offensive. I didn't really like Doom 3 multiplayer, the starting weapons were mad weak! Ehh I guess if you know me, Im more into historical stuff anyway :) Damn I even wore my World War 2 gear to the lan party... (see picture at the end of the post)Afterwards Manfre, Jon and I went to Applebee's and ate Half Price Apps. But in true Frank fashion, I hit my head! I was talking to an old friend who was our server, I start getting up not paying attention and slammed my head on the Lamp over the table. What an idiot! ::End Of Saturday:: Move on to Sunday!

Hey Guys Check This OUt!!! I know'll You'll Dig it!!! Well Maybe just the guys.. but regardless I thought this was phat!

Im Hungry for Justice and Food.. lol Well Last night I had a typical frank dream. My friend Jesse and I were somehow with the White House entourage. For some strange reason, President Bush wasn't there and Dick cheney either. So they called in an even worse man , Ronnie Raygun, to run the show. We were apparently going to war once again with another country, of which I can not tell you cause i simply don't know or remember. As the dream went on, I got some secret information by an undisclosed source in a Hat , Trench coat and glasses that it was a big scam to make money off of satelite tv. Dish Network to be exact. It was gonna be $100. dollars a month for Dish Network, and Direct Tv was fighting them by making it $87.94.. I was flabergasted even in my dream.. Like WTF is going on here.. Maybe it was the sushi I had last nite.. Hmmm Sushi sounds good... lol As you can tell its Lunch Time, and Im starving.. Maybe after work I can go to subway and get some grub!! lol Always thinking with my stomach.. hehehe Food is Good... :: Mouth Waters ::

So This morning I woke up at like 9:15 and did crunchs and push ups. Then I ran around the block and walked it twice. (Taking it slow) My lungs are still a little gunky and slugish, but there getting there. I took a nice long showeR!! HAHA Im waiting to go to work at 1 o'clock. So now Im chillen and I have nothing to write.. .hehe I do have this phat game for those of you at work and have nothing to do :)

check it out!

Hey I just want to sound off a little bit.. Im in a really really really pissy mood today! I need to find a real job. I have been putting all of my eggs in one basket. (ie. Jet Blue) I say fuck them, They're never gonna call. Facist bastards. So now Im on the look out for anything I can get my hands on now. I mean no offense to the Library, but that fuckin job sucks balls.. The people are great, but the hours aren't good enough for a 16 year old. I don't make shit for pay, Maybe I should go back to warehouse work?!? Until I can go back to school..! Maybe I should go to night classes, at least get something like an A+ cert. so I can make more money in the corprate world.

HomestarRunner.net
"Its Dot Com!" Check this out Im sure most of you have seen it before its still mad funny! I noticed if you watch over and over things change in it.. pretty cool effect :)

Hey Kids!

I had an awesome surprise last night! My friend Frances came to my house. He didn't have my number so he just came by! It was such an awesome time. We caught up on old times, and I set the record straight with him. So we're cool again! It was awesome to see you frances..! Later Dennis Frances and I walked to 711 and caused trouble like a bunch of heathens! Well not frances (yeah ok), he's reformed now! More or less dennis and i caused trouble. So today we all get to go see Tiesto, it should be a pretty cool experience. For me going into manhattan is like going home. All I know is the show should be cool.. it better at $39.00 a ticket for one dude playin with a keyboard.. LOL well it should be good because of all the girls.. Sorry Im done here cause Im fuckin aggrevated.. HOLLA BACK KIDS!

"Look What Happened"

And I swear it's the last time and I swear it's my last try
and we'll walk in circles around this whole block
walk on the cracks on the same old sidewalks
and we'll talk about leaving town
yeah we'll talk about leaving
I swear it's the last time I swear it's my last try
We rode across that bridge all night
we talked our way through city lights
traced all the lines we're killing time
under those buzzing signs
from downtown to anywhere but here
tonight yeah I swear to these rooftops
and just hoped that car would never stop
we drove around this place all night
past closed signs and familiar sights
we're moving by passing time
counting those center lines
with 20,000 lines left to go
that lead to somewhere I don't know
it might be the time tha twe leave this all behind
there's been a few times
that we thought it felt right
to take all the westbound signs
and just leave town tonight

So Last night was cool.. Went home with Jon and Mike and met up with Jennie. When I say home I mean NYC, manhattan to be exact. God I so want to live there. But I digress, So we went to the Tiesto Concert, which was phat. We went out on the dance floor and got down with the beats, it was cool. Manfre lost us in the crowd on purpose I guess to dance with the ladies. Jon got down with his bad self awell.. And me come on now, thats a stupid question, of course I danced! Around 8:30 Jennie and I bounced up out of the concert and went to my Brother's apt on E.71 st. Which is always awesome to see my fams! Jennie and I chilled there for a while, until 10 or 11. the exact time I do not recall. But we went out to get Vietnamese food, which was awesome! Never had it before.. and I found $20.00 bucks on the floor!!! Whats with everyone finding money lately and in increments of 20. thats so nutty.. Well thats all for now.. Im shot gonnna take a nap and then go get paid!! Yay I love Payday.. Tomorrow is My Ma Dukes Birthday too... :)

Clean Your Toilet -
The Fun Way

1. Put both lids of the toilet up and add 1/8 cup of pet shampoo to the water in the bowl.

2. Pick up the cat and soothe him while you carry him towards the bathroom.

3. In one smooth movement, put the cat in the toilet and close both lids. You may need to stand on the lid.

4. The cat will self agitate and make ample suds.
Never mind the noises that come from the toilet, the cat
is actually enjoying this.

5. Flush the toilet three or four times. This provides
a "power-wash" and rinse".

6. Have someone open the front door of your home.
Be sure that there are no people between the bathroom
and the front door.

7. Stand behind the toilet as far as you can, and quickly
lift both lids.

8. The cat will rocket out of the toilet, streak through the bathroom, and run outside where he will dry himself off.

9. Both the commode and the cat will be sparkling clean.

Sincerely,

The Dog

FIRST OFF HAPPY BIRTHDAY MaMa DuKeS!

I am a blog thief. Stolen from "Mos Def" Steph:

I am not: Here
I love: Myself, My 'rents, and my friends
I hate: People who think they are better than everyone, (Cause Im the Best), People intolerant of other people's cultures and the dutch! oh and George W. Bush!! FACIST!
I fear: Nothing, except getting old
I hope: Hope is a bad thing It has forsaken this land
I hear: The symphony of dispair in my twisted head because this damn band keeps playing the same tragic love song in my head
I crave: White castle? wait no, Vietnamese Food!!
I regret: A lot of things, buts its not your business
I cry: if its warranted
I care: about my family and friends
I always: think strategically
I believe: A Utopian Society can and Will work!
I feel alone: Sometimes
I listen: to music alot
I hide: my guns
I drive: soon to be a 93 cavilier
I sing: better than everyone
I dance: when the bass is kickin
I write: in my blog,poetry book
I play: guitar
I miss: My mom's cookin well i did, but now shes back!! I really really miss Skibbo's Heros
I search: Unadulterated Love.. hmmm maybe not.. lol
I learn: from my mistakes.
I feel: Good and Bad, cause with either. one can not experience and enjoy life!
I know: kung fu, jungle , mout combat skills
I say: H.U.A. (Heard Understood Acknowleged)
I succeed: when I put my mind to it
I dream: Twisted Scary Shit!
I wonder: when I will go back to school! Spring time baby!
I want: To breathe
I have: pairs of BDU's (Battle Dress Uniform)
I give: Time and Love?
I fell: out of love once..
I fight: for anything i want, need, or love
I need: more money

First Off Im G I FUCKIN JOE!

You're GI Joe with the Kung Fu Grip!! You're
strong, tough,intelligent and you know how to kick some ass.
Don't forget though, no matter how manly you
think you are, you're still just a doll. God
Bless America.

WHAT A FRIGGIN PARTY LAST NIGHT! It was so awesome, I had some reservations before but it was a rip roaring good time. I drank more than I have in a long long time. Picture Labor Day weekend,(The Whole Enchilada) times it by 3. My boy Tommy chilled too, so it was like old times. Chico , Tommy, Dennis and I all chilled out and got drunk with My Aunt Lily, Uncle pete, Conor,Joelle,Uncle Jack, Aunt Jane,and John and Rachel oh and Kasey and Gary came by aswell. I made a toast somewhere along the night, about how happy I was to see everyone back together again! For those of you who don't know, thats the way things used to be every weekend! Regardless of birthdays and other things we always got together and partied!! hehe So for me my night was jam packed full of drinking, laughing crying xbox, and just plain old talkin'. It was a true old skool bash in so many ways. Oh YeaH Happy Birthday MaMa DuKeS!!! Oh To those of you I called last night, My bad I was drunk off my izzy!! hahahaha This will be one of those parties that will go down in the history books as one of the best parties of all time.. The Music Was Bumpin' The Party was Jumpin' and um... hehe thats all.. be easy nukkah! Thats what Im about!

Today I did something that meant a lot to me. Well first off, My grandmother died from ALS, aka Lou Gerhig's Disease. So the fams got together and walked with the "D' Feet ALS" walk in Nassau. Eisenhower Park to be exact. It was only 3.5 miles but it was an awesome time. And the reason for us being there made it even better. To try to help someone who has it now and maybe contribute to finding a cure is awesome. I don't want a family going through what we had to and what my 'Nana' had to go through. Well thats all.. I feel sick still,so im gonna go to bed.. Oh Jon "Reset" my password so it says he posted all of my shit.. . lol Later kiddos "Let the smoke close my eyes, bring the time to change my mind, Wash away this soul" I think Im gonna go jump off of a Big Bridge.. why cause its FUCKIN FUN!!! IRISH CAR BOMBS.. hahaha

These songs are parts of two (Hed) pe songs.. My favorite songs and parts.. The Italic parts are my most favorite lines in any song. Check em out.

I know my limitations
I just don't know when to quit
I know when I'm addicted
But no, I can't get enough of this, what?

Where'd everybody go?
I know I'm losing, but I don't know what to do
Sweet Jesus make it go away
Mary, Joseph what I should I say?
What do I do?

When I was alone you just laughed at me
I held out my hand, you just closed your eyes
I only wanted to be good
All I wanted was a chance to make things right

Twenty thousand leagues deep on the mic
Mass murder, court convicted, terroristic creature of the night
No, don't let me get freaky tonight
No, don't feed me tonight
I been drinking way to much Jagermeister
Mommy pray for me, cause I'm not feeling right
I've been hearing these voices
They're telling me to take my own life
Breathe my last breath, eat my last meal
You got what you deserve nigga!
How's that feel?

Night filled with dreams errr.. Possibly premonitions... I had a rough night. Did somethings I wish I didn't and I probably shouldn't have, but oh well. I think its for the best. I haven't been feeling well lately, not emotionally, physically. I told someone about these problems last night and I figured whatever. I think I need to go to the doctor soon cause after last nights dreams I feel its imperitive I go. If I seem distant to anyone, Im sorry, I have a lot on my mind and no one to talk to.. Well I do have people to talk to, but I feel its just none of anyone's business..(no offense) This is shit I have to work out in my own head.

No one understands me anyway, thats what I've been hearing for years now. Only my dear old friends do, and they are no where to be found. I hate lookin for things that aren't really there... ya know? The fucked up thing is when Im feeling really down, something happens to redeem my trust and love of this fucked up world. I think I need to retreat from the world for awhile and get back into my religion, get healthy again. Take care of myself for a change, instead of relying on other people. I just wish I didn't open up again.. When I relate my past, it seems people run and hide.. what the fuck??! And don't ask me what the fuck Im talking about, cause I don't want to talk about it in detail. And If you think you know what Im talking about you probably don't.. It has nothing to do with any of you.. :) If it did you know I would come out and say it.. So until next time kiddies.. Have A Hell of A Fucking Day!!!!

I can't wait to go home. So I can sit in my room, and await the impending doom.. hmmm? LOL I don't even know what the hell Im talking about anymore. I really want to smoke a joint and maybe a nice cigarette.. But Im broke so, fawget about it! Maybe I'll just drink the last of the Jack D. Anyone wanna get drunk with me? Damn I sound like heavy D!... Work fuckin sucks, its boring.. Hmm maybe I shouldn't drink, I got an empty stomach. Don't wanna get sick. Maybe my lungs would feel better if I smoke just one cigarette.. It would be dumb to start now, but I feel like shit (physically and mentally).. I mean my lungs feel worse than they did when I smoked.. Damn Im in a bitchy mood today. .I sound like a bitch on the rag.. Yeah thats right I said it! I feel like a dick to.. I was supposed to go to my friend's wake yesterday.. Wait let me reword that.. My friend's grandfather's wake?! Yeah that sounds about right. Oh and I never called my cousin mike back about the cat.. Sorry Kupo I can't take you :( So Brotha Mike if you're reading this, call me and let me know if its cool if i come out this weekend. I need to get away from all of this bullshit! I need an old skool weekend! Or if you want to come out for the day and play! its up to you which ever way is cool with me! You, know its true about swallowing blood! You can swallow around a pint of blood before you get sick.. ugh YAY AN HOUR LEFT OF WORK!!! I don't think anyone reads my blog anymore.. haha FUCKITY FUCK FUCK! All kidding aside, I don't really care if anyone reads it.. cause Its more for me than anyone else.. yeah thats the ticket!

Well first off I get home and then I find my computer was dead in the water. Poor thing :( I touched the top of the case when I tried turing it on and I got zapped.. OWWIE WOWIE! So I called Jon and he said he had an old case lying around I could use. So I went by the crib and we worked on it.. As you can see its back to normal on the Frank Ranch in Franktown USA! All is well too.. Ive been thinking things over and I figure I've been thinking on stuff WAY TO MUCH this weekend.. Like I told my good buddy Jon today, Ive been so pre occupied with other peoples dilemas etc. I didn't pay any attention to my own! So picture finally coming back to your desk after 2 months of work at someone else's.. Thats a huge pile.. Its like I opened the flood gates of my mind.. I guess it was close to a nervous break down.. I look back at what I wrote today and was like damn I sound like a crazed maniac! Well whatever it makes me feel better to vent to the space and those of you who read! Which reminds me.. Thank you guys for listening, You're the best and just as crazy as I am for listening too me! hehehe Well Catch ya later!! Oh and A special apology is in order.. Jen Im Sorry for gettin fuckin crazy with ya.. I hope ya accept :) friends?!?

"..."

Why? Why do I feel like this. Its like someone killed my puppy and made me eat it.. Okay before you get all in an uproar, no puppies were hurt in the making of this blog entry. All kidding aside. I don't understand it.. I feel like Im on a rollercoaster, Up and Down everyday. I think Im losing it, maybe Im just tired.

So Im at work!! I was so fuckin sick yesteday I was mad dizzy with a spliting head ache.. ugh.. So someonce called me today at 12:46p on my cell phone. It came up as unknown. I hate that.. when people call and don't leave a message.. Hhehehe So two people are coming to look at my mustang in the next two days! Yay for me! its about fucking time.. Then I can get the car on the road once again and find a good paying job once again. Although I will miss the library! But Im getting ahead of myself...

So I didn't go to work yesterday because I was sick as a dog and went to the doctor. I found out that the blood I have been coughing up is natural! Because I smoked so damn long my lungs are beating themselves up so that all of that toxic shit can get out of my lungs.. I am also losing weight, I dunno what Im doing but Im losing it.. Hmmm? lol I started playing this RPG last night on XBOX, called Star Wars Knights of the Old Republic (KOTR) pretty in depth RPG for XBOX..Its actually a phat game, I started playing last week for an hour or so, and let it be. But when I found out you can become bad or good in it I was so down with that! hahah I sound like such a fuckin nerd! Well thats all I can really think of right now... Oh ::TO WHOMEVER CALLED ME!! CALL ME BACK LATER ON MY CELL::: I hope they read this blog. hahahah Hi MOM!! (I feel like Im On TV) Oh I almost forgot.. My gurl Meg hooked me up with this phat Mexican Band.. South Park Mexicans.. They Rap in spanish and in english, pretty tight shit!! Check em out! Oh and One more thing.. I wanna thank everyone for there support the past few days.. it was much needed.. Im sorry for bitching all the time.. Just been a rough couple of days on the ol Noggin' ;)

Possibly One of the Craziest things Ive seen in a while.. check it out.. HAHAH , except the cool Green XBOX

Im here listening to the First Korn Album and I was like wait a minute.. WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO KORN.. oh yeah they became soft rap gay music.. After Life is peachy they went off the deep end, and started making poppy bullshit!!! So I plead with you Korn Give it up and go back to your gated community and spare us the crappy tunes.. unless you're gonna make the old skool shit you used to make.. Not Rap Rock Bullshit.. We all saw what happend to Gay Bizcut.. hahah Fags.. They Just suck.... Just Like metallica.. the New Metallica AL is what I call it.. (After Load)They fuckin blow.. not to mention how they alienated there fans.. Remember Guys you were anti establishment!!?!?! And they get all mad like hey we didn't sell out! Why cause we cut our hair?? No cause you fucked over your fans monkey fuck!! Music isn't supposed to be about money.. its about the love of music and your fucking fans!!! FUCK YOU LARS ULRICH, I hope you rot in hell.. If cliff burton was alive he'd kick your monkey ass you rich fuck'n sell out.. okay Im done.. :)

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