Karmic Buddha

Im gonna FLIP THE FUCK OUT !!! Now There is no way in hell i am going to odessa.. For you idiots that don't pay attention to me.. Odessa is a World War 2 event I have been awaiting for months now. Its been an Up and Down rollercoaster. But now the final result is That Im fucked.. I can not afford the ammo, and neither can the person who was lending me the 150.00 bucks.. I AM SO FUCKING PISSED and on top of that Im losing 30.00 well donating it to the event.. I pay for an event I don't even get to go to.. So now what the fuck do I do from the 10th to the 13th... FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK..... I hate this White Trash Life style... I am I I this close to bouncing out of NY just taking whatever money I have and hitting the road. I don't care , ive done it before.. Or maybe jump into the military. I dunno.. FUCK N' SHIT

Well I went to work this morning of course, went to lunch with Jon. We had a cheddar lovers bacon cheeseburger. It was awesome, spoke with jen for mad long. Now Im fiending for a cigarette like a motherfucker.. and Im starting to get really fuckin aggrivated. Im hungry and Im fuckin broke.. Its funny how strong your mind is when it wants something. Im so thinking of smoking one right now.. All i can do is think of it.. Maybe i should just go to bed and eat tomorrow.. I can't eat tonight so, i gotta keep my mind off of it.. I hate being the poor kid.. Im like eminem just without any skills.. lol Ah well.. talk to y'all tomorrow.. :) Yo thanks for talkin to me for mad long jen! Kept my mind off it for a bit.. Say what up to Jonnie for me.. hehe