Karmic Buddha

Just Got My Paycheck today and Its not exactly what I was expecting. So now I must make decisions. I probably can't go to my WW2 event in odessa now, cause I can't afford the ammo, which needs to be ordered tonite. Don't have the 90 bucks, because I have to give jon's dad loot towards the car I am buying from him. I can't stand being white trash anymore. Fuck at least I don't smoke marlbros anymore.. IM SO FUCKING PISSED DUDE!!! I NEED A REAL JOB!!! HAHAHAH I mean I love workin' here at the good ol' library, but Im 22 years old I used to make anywhere from 35,000 to 40,000 with my eyes closed. But These damn places never call back , even though I have the experience. Looks like Im gonna have to go back down the ladder and become a grease monkey named "Manuel" Labor. Its times like these that piss me off because I basically screwed myself in the long run. I should have gone to school. Now Im the poor kid who can't get a good job to pay his bills and shit. Ahh fuck it, Im just pissed and feeling down. I mean I feel so bad, going out with friends and they have to pay for me.. I think i'll just stay home from now on, I hate being a burden on them , and Im sure there all gettin pissed about it too. I just don't want them thinking I was taking advantage thats all. I just wanna thank you guys (and you know who you are) that basically took care of my ass for a bit, you know if and when I ever get back on my feet Im gonna make it up to ya.. Well maybe not wally ha ha ha ha ha just kidding. :)...............