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2 Days Of Hell With A Few Hours Of Heaven

Well the past 2 days were pretty crazy, Monday was cool. I mostly slept all day, and hung out with my little brother dennis smoking cigarettes and watching inuyasha. Went out with Jen and Jon, to applebees and saw my buddy Sue. We ate apps and I drank well, more like chugged 3 killian's reds from the tap. Its strange, because I can drink a 12 pack and be real messed up, but when I drink the same beer from the tap I totally get more shloshed! I think it has to do with the way it sits in the Keg and the way it ferments. But thats beside the point. He He.

So I got home from there and chilled with dennis again and watched some more inuyasha. Tuesday, I ran out of cigarettes in the early morning. Which to those of you who know me, is a really bad thing! Ive been smoking for years now, and when I run out its really really bad! LOL So I spent the day looking for things to do, trying to keep my mind off of cigarettes. So eventually I made it all the way to 6 pm. My Poppa Dukes gets home and saves me by giving me a Butt! My Friend Chico comes over, we play some halo for a while. Then he decides he wants to get ESPN 2k5! Which my friends I feel is the best Football Game I have ever played! It is so SICK!!! SO we go out to wal mart. It's only $19.85, that was awesome in its own right. So we bugged out until like 2 in the morning playing football.

Wednesday, Day 2 of hell! I run out of cigarettes once again. But this time I don't have 2k5 to take my mind off of my addiction. So i spent the day grinding my teeth and playing Rainbow Six 3. Which I beat the shit out of on hard at that. I kicked over a huge bottle of water on to my bed when i beat it and soaked all my blankets and pillows. And at that point, I was a raging ball of fire! No Cigarettes and something like that just Set Me Off! So for hours I roamed the house flippin out, No food or Cigarettes to be seen anywhere. But my saving grace was once again My dukes! He got home first and Gave me a cigarette, and asked me what store sells ESPN 2k5. I told him , and he just nodded his head and walked away. By this time my mom was home and we were all eating macaroni's my pops cooked. He then told me after dinner he was takin me to get the game. So That totally made up for the day!

But so Starts Day 3! Today, I have only had 1 cigarette and Already I am starting to fiend. I found out that when you go one day on and one day off, that its really bad for your heart. So now Im perplexed, Do I quit? or do I sucome to my addiction and smoke my little heart out? See its a bad weekend to quit. I am going to Bethpage Historical Society's Restoration Village this weekend for a Civil War Reenactment. I am the 2nd Sgt of the 14th Brooklyn and this weekend I am acting 1st Sgt. And when you're out side all day, its really rough to not smoke! And Yes I know it would be awesome for me to quit and I would be saving money that I need, and all, But its hard guys. If you've never smoked as long as I have you have no idea! Well Im at work now and I have some shtuff to do.. thats right I said shtuff! LOL Well I'll write more later!

Comments (3)

Jon:

I know it's hard but you can overcome it! We have faith in you.

Karmic_inuyasha_the_prophet:

Thanks Jon, its nice to know that I have great friend's who Care!!!

Mike:

Strength and tranquility of mind will overcome the addiction.

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